So, Look at this cool flower i found on my sample pictures on my laptop. i just love it!

I decided my blog was a little too pepto-pink, so I changed it up. :) life is pretty good right now. I'm workin three jobs and taking two online courses this summer, so I'm keepin pretty busy! I am trying really hard to earn enough to go to school at BYUH in the fall. But, I am thinking I might have to defer a semester because I cant save enough. It all hinges on if I get scholarships or not, so nothing is set in stone. By waiting until the winter semester though I can keep saving all through the fall, because i am pretty sure I will have a job, possibly full time. i can avoid a huge christmas plane ticket, and for sure get to come home for christmas. By saving up this fall, I can earn enough to where I wont have to work while I am in school, which is a huge plus. i called BYUH and they said they could defer me to winter no problem. I sorta wanted to tell everyone at once, and get it over with. This is something I have been thinking about these past few weeks, and I think it is good to have this back up plan. My number one goal is to get there this fall, but if that doesnt happen, the alternative is not the end of the world. Yesterday, I was really down about this being a huge possibilitiy, but I think someone out there loves me, and knew how down I was. Someone donated a laptop to me, a HUGE load off my mind. It is this cute compaq computer with everything I ever wanted from a laptop. I dont know who you are, but I wanted to thank you. I figure you are a friend, so I thought this might be a good way to say thanks. i know everyone is working very hard to get me to school in the fall, everyone has pitched in so much, and I am so grateful. I have the best family in the whole world, and anyone who says theirs is, is totally lying. :) I love my sisters, they are the best friends I ever had and they mean everything to me. (Yes alicia you are included!) I love my brothers, they are the best brothers ever. I love my Dad, he helps me without a second thought, and is always there when I need him. I love my grandmother, who puts up with my short term memory loss, and lets me live in her house, she is the toughest lady I know. Lastly, I love my mom. She pretty much is my best friend without whom, I most likely I wouldnt be standing. When i told her about defering a semester, I started with, "Mom, i have some news. I am pregnant, and i might have to defer a semester." She said that wasnt even funny but laughed anyway. I figured if I distracted her with fake bad news, the real bad news wouldnt be so bad in comparison. Good plan right? Anyway, just feeling grateful. :)

So, I was feeling really down the other day, and decided to make a list of things I love, maybe cheering myself up a little. It kind of worked. So, here is my little list.

Things I love:

-My family the most
-rainy days
-sunny days
-windy days
-fall
-spring
-Winter
-Getting a letter (NOT a text!)
-Getting a phone call
-REAL hugs from friends
-Family gatherings
-Christmas
-Halloween
-Pictures of the savior, (except that one they re-did of him smiling, that one is just creepy)
-That super clean feeling after a really long shower
-Cozy blankies
-Swimming
-getting my toenails painted
-new jeans
-having an "I feel skinnier" day
-having an "I feel pretty" day
-good friends
-really entertaining blogs
-At night in really heavy traffic on the freeway, how all the lights going one way are red and the other white, looks like christmas
-puppies
-comfy sweats and a really good movie
-hot chocolate
-people who talk in their sleep
-old home movies
-old movies in general
-Pride and Predjudice
-Calamity Jane
-Law and Order
-Bones
-Daisies
-Having the white part on my fingernails. It is a new thing for me.
-Office supplies
-Library, smells, books, atmosphere in general
-Swings
-REally cool rainbows
-riding my bike nowhere in particular
-driving
-Pushing snooze on the alarm on my phone
-Getting a present
-kindness
-generosity
-the name "beverly"
-a genuine compliment
-hammocks
-Winter
-Water ballons-As long as I am throwing them
-Push-up ice cream pops
-getting a haircut
-New makeup
-naps
-making someone's day
-smelly markers
-making something pretty
-good pictures of friends/family
-playing the piano reallly loud
-playing the piano really well, heart felt. Working on that
-that feeling when you first crawl into bed, of ahhhh.
-inside jokes, unless you are on the outside
-flip flops
-catching up with an old friend
-singing in the car, reallllly loud
-being really embarassed when the person in the car next to you starts laughing
-singing and dancing while cleaning the kitchen/bathroom
-Singing in the shower, it always sounds better in there for some reason.
-feeling safe
-making to-do lists
-actually remembering something
-people doing really funny things while they think no one is looking
-primary program day at church.
-having a clean room. (love the end result, not the process)
-mario's resturant
-making cookies, cooking in general
-loving so many things about life.

That's my list, and there is so much more I am sure. Makes me very grateful for so many things in my life. I love that there are some people in the world who love me enough to take me for what I am, imperfections and all. I love most of all, that I can ask for help, when I need it, and almost always, someone is there to help. Just feeling very grateful today, that's all.